mEmOry 1

sUmtime I’m not so sure about sharing dis things here..but I do wnt it as fOr me,,…dis is one of de best part in my life..when I’m juz follow de sound if my heart. Never turn back and juz rock de world.

dis memory of few month ago, when I’m still in iium nilai yg da lame I tinggal..and I don’t think about going back… x brmakna I x suke nilai, but there r few things, were really could messing me.

Catatan : 26^th dec

I stIil fEel frEsh its already 3.40a.m..whtElse can I dO hEre? sEkarang kat balkOni rUmah abaH. lOoking at evErywhere.,,, sUch a nIce vIew, bnYk bTol lampU kat cni. iT makEs me remEmber of yEsterdaY. At first its a tirIng day bUt acTually..it is a daY that cOuld bloOm my bEat. Hari apE ek??..hari yg BAHAGIA!

lEtih  jUgak semaLam bile t’pakSe fight ngan manusia2 kt KTM..beRagam ragam plAk tuh diOrg. I’m nOt brave enOugh bUt de willing that I have can’t stop me frum move my steps. My 1^st intention was to rock de wOrld (yeah..of cOurse!!) plus..i wanna sEe my broTher, Ahmad. Miss hIm already… anYway, after strUggling wth manUsia yg beraGam ragam, raIn, n mcm2…(de big deal is Miss. L) a lOt I have to bEar wth her. Tapi paling pEnting sekali I’ll nevEr reaCh KAJANG w/o her.

ThEre we are.. rEached hEntian kajang . We both so cOld coz mse tu hUjan lebat plus dlm teksi aircond pUnya la kUat pasang. Its enOugh to mAke us scRambling.while waiting fOr ahmad to fEtch us, I hve a cUp of tea to get sUm hEat mybe..abouT ten minUtes, he came and…I be spEechless. lOoking at hIm makEs a reliEf in me(rse sgt terharu). wth same face…same smile..segan2..definitEly, hE is my  brother.

To be continue…

I'm sOrrY..

hE is rEally sUmthinG in mY life..whY dId I aDmit it???....cOz I’m wAiting fOr hiS presence jUst now. I nOticE thaT hE is oTw here when  i rEad hIs tExt On mY nIla’s fOn. .pEtang tu jUgak wHilE I prepared fOods fOr my aUnt’s family, mY eYes is eVerywHere lOoking fOr him iF he is aRrived. sUmtimE I wEnt tO my rOom to sEe whether dE red caR is there. I dOn’t knOw whY I’m sO excitEd tO sEe him…bUt wHat I do cOnform iS,,mY my bEat want tO seE him in Order to fEel sum pEace inside....iTs noT mean tHat my lIfe is hOrriblE, but hE sUch a rElief…

I dOn’t knOw if I alrEady inheriTed mErlin’s mAgicS but..it is sUch an Instinc wHere I caN feEl that he iS aLreAdy arrived..i’m jUz tryIng tO prEtend lIke  nOthing happen insIde. I wOn’t my brothers eSpeciaLly my savOur nOticE that cOz it may hUrt…..(nTah la btOl ke x)..bUt fOr sure, prcayE atw x I am nOt looking at hIm at aLl..cOz its juz enough tO fEel hIs pResencE. or to bE frank, mybE I’m sCared if I can’t  sTop him from lEaving.  hOwever, lUcky mE..hE talk tO me bEfore hIs lEaving ( thanks bUddy!! )

                cIk M : pEtang nI balik sKali ngaN abAh ke KL?

                gOhan : xlaH, da cUti sEkarang.

                hIm : xlah mAk, diE da cUti lamE…laMe..lamE..

                          k.nGah, kEnape x bagI sEndri kErtas2 ni??

                gOhan : sEbab…seBab nak anGkat bajU(kt jEmuran)

tHen..i jUz leave hIm..bUt he callEd  my name n tOld mE that hE is lEaving. I wOn’t lEt hIm gO actually, indeed I nEed a frEn rite nOw…bUt I juz ignore it. mOre than knOw…hE can’T bE arOund. wEll…I hOpe tO seE him agaIn. pasaL kerTas2 tU plak, bUkan xnaK baGi sEndiri but I wOn’t hUrt anyone. Agak nYe ade yg x faHam “ I wOnt hUrt anyone”..i’ll eXplain latEr ok..

actUally I’m tHinking abOut calliNg him tOnight bUt I wOn’t dIsturb hIm….hE sEems vEry tiRed,….nIte sEven.

                

a reLief

sUch a relief..mEsyuaRat agOng kaT rUma da pOn sElesai. tHanks tO gOd, i.Allah bErkat kEsatUan haTi kEluargEku, dapAt la sElesai sEgala masLahat. waLaupOn pdE muLa nyE atmosphere mEeting tuh caM sUram bUt alHamdUlillah mY hErO , tO be mOre specific..my daD, know how tO handle it.(saYe saYang aBah saYe ).

Yg dE 3stOoges tadI baLik umAh tEros tidO,cOz tdo cUme dUe jAm je kT camp sEmalam. ucU kesaYangan kU tibE dlm pkOl 8p.m td..bErtmbah2 cErie la hdUp ku arI ni. bUat pEngetahUan sEmua, ucU ku ni sAngat2 baIk orGnyE..pEnyaYang n pEmurah. He is The bEst unclE I evEr had.

            sEven : hAri nI Hari apE ek?

            gOhan: haRi..hari yaNg cErIa!!

           

as cOld aS my bEat

dE wEather nOw is so sOld n plEasant..samE gOes tO my bEat rIte nOw.,frEsh n peace,,.wEll..sUnyi skit umah arI ni cOz de 3stOogEs arE nOt hEre. they r gOing 4 a cAmp buT I fEel nO rEgret of not being wth them. sEmpat jgK jEngok kt tinGkap n bYe2 kt sI manJe mEme, dE touching onE ikbAl n bdk kEcik cOmel yaItu amEn. sUke tEngOk diOrg n semEmangnyE penYeri hidOp.laU xde bdK tigE org niH plus jAan n my savOur maKa sUramlaH hIdup ku.

mY dad brU smpaI pEtang tadI, so happY tO seE hIm.bUt hIs face seems like hvE so many tHings that is nOt dOne yet.hOpefully hE can wOrk iT oUt.