sOb..sOb..

A mOntH alReadY my vacAtiOn..feeL liKe a yEar bEb!!..huH..b’jaYe juGak hadApi ari2 yG mEncabAr niH. sTory 4 tOday, nIla’s caR knE taRik cOz duE bulaN lEbih x bAyar. Al mAklUm lAh bnYk sGt isi rUmah yG nak kEne uRos. I fElt vEry sad tO watch all tHese, cOz I cAn’t dO nOthing to tUrn it right..bUt tUhan tu mAha kAya n da anta peNyelamAt iaiTu mY bElovEd uCu . wAlaupOn x sEteL haBis lg, aT least niLa dA bOley tEngok ciTe2 fAvOurite diE ngAn tEnang pEtang tadI. wHat makes mE worry nOw is, wHat wIll happen tO my bRothers?? diOrg da La tEgah adE pEmiliHan sUkan,cam paYah je diOrg nak gerAk..bUt I know that nIla will tHink sUmting 4 thEm. itU lah hEbat nyE my niLa..nEver give up. nO metTer wHat hAppen, sHe will sUrvive. thUmb up 4 niLa!!..wHen I tHink bOut nilA, I fEel helPless..i know sHe tries her bEst buT still  cannOt fUllfiLl others needs. lEt me Tell sUmthing, niLa sHould’nt gIve toO much, cOz we caN’t sAtisfIed everyone. inFact, gives sUm space for OwnsElf is bEtter in dIs cIrcumstAnce. I hOpe niLa bLey b’tAhan, cOz wE all need heR.

jAp tAdi tIme sEnt my yOungEst brother pEgi eXtra cLaz..On mY way..i feel like wAnna cRy.,I feel so lOnely, nEed a waRm shOulder to Lie fOr a wHile,.. fEel tiRed of bEing sacrIficed . tHat time, iF I aM in nIlai..i’m pretTy  suRe I’ll go to hEntian and mEet seven!! I nEed sEven right now. A wArm..cOmfort..sAfe..plEasant and hUmor..i’m nOt meant tHat people hEre is a mEss bUt I rEally nEed tO hEal up mY sElf.tO make it..i kNow, sEven is dE rIght pErson.wEll..bacK tO my rOom n I mAke a call.cHat wTh sEven fOr a wHile,listen tO hIs stOry..hE saId:

‘k.nGah,haRi ni aDe cite klakar..sEmalam adE extra cLaz cAmpor nGan clAz bDk pEmpuan.tHen ade sOrg bdk pEmpUan bAgi surAt.diE tUlis ‘naMe saYe kAnciL darI skOla ####,nAk bErkenAlan nGan aWak’

haHaahaAa..likE a nOrmal rOmEo n jUliEt,but sEven is nOt a kasanOva la. I trUst hIm, hE wilL nOt enTertain sUch tHing.tEngAh srOnok2 bOrak bEtry I habIs..nAk cHargE tapI x jUmpE cHarger. jAdi I take mY bAth and writing dIs gOhan sTory. bEfOre pEn oFf, tHanks tO gOd fOr gIving mE a liFe.

miSs 7

WhAt a tiRing dAy..!wEll.. I’m uSed to It acTually. But hAri niE maCam terLebiH pEnat. mY bRain dA mcaM larva Yg nAk meletOp..anywaY Iman mAsih di dAda, daPat la berTahan.  today da pLan naK have fUn ngAn iLa, buT as uSual la.. aDe je urUsan yang mEndaTang. dE yang nak peGi  jUmpe dentist la, mIntaK aMbik Kan kaT Terminal la, yang nAk knE jemPut dr Extra ClaZ pon sAtu hal gak. I have n0 cHoicE but cAncel mY pLan. mEantIme, my angel pLak wat hal. She is different pErson now, I cAn’t even recogNize her . sHe is no more my AngEl, myBe I caN saY shE is A giant mOunsTer tHat I really scared of. ShE is not lOking at me wIth her soft sight anymore, she is Not a HappY angel gIrl, sHe looks like uNhappY with heR own life and To be WorsE..shE mAkes rUin oTher people life tOo (espEciAlly mE).

apArt oF thEse mEss,,..i ‘vE bEen thIngkIng  bOut sumOne. wHo is vEry fAr from mE, I cOuld’nt reach it bEcoz of de dIstaNce. inFact, I won’t make other’s life horrible juZ beCoz oF me. bUt it iS de fact that hE is sUch a rElief fOr me..wArm ..safe..cOmfort..and pleasant…I mIss him especially wHen tHe wOrld mAke a meSs in my hEart. aPepOn yG jaDi ari ni, I fEel no rEgret cOz I’m dOing aLL dis fOr mY own pEople. I lOve tHem tOo..fIghTing!fIghtIng!!

it is awkward !

what is it about actually? i can"t juz live my life when i'm always thinking about others. being little confuse for a while..i do it with my own will, no one urges me to do so.,but then sumtime could feel it like a huge box on my back that i have to carry out along my way..how can i'm so confuse, or to be frank,,i juz won't understand. coz i did know that i love them so much. how could them be a burden to me??? mybe i should give sum period of time to myself to feel enjoyed with my own self. i should be smarter in handling dis. F.A.A. have to fight now!